Today is my first day of blogging, it also happens to be my third day of not smoking. So here is my story I am 26 and have been smoking for over 11 years, I started at some point when I was 15.
I guess the easiest way the to describe the reason i started smoking was because I felt the need to fit it in. Almost everyone in my family older than me smoked and although none of my friends did thats just the way I went with it. So I started when I was 15 and continued that until I was 17, thats when I started dating my high school girlfriend Julie she was a non-smoker but like me grew up in house of smokers, so she despised it. At first I gave it a half hearted effort to quit, realizing it was going to take a little more than that, I just decided to hide it her, and actually got pretty good at it. If I had put the half the effort in to quitting that i put into hiding it from her, I probably wouldn't be starting this today, now this shit was pretty elaborate, I went as far as hiding cigarettes in my car, hiding them in my hats, to never smoke after a shower when i knew i was going to see her, to brushing my teeth and using mouthwash all the time. I think I hid it from her for about 9 months, then one day while I was at work, I was taking a smoke break and she pulls up right where I was sitting down....caught red handed...she was so mad, She didnt talk to me for what seemed like days, and we continued dating and as she knew. I continued to not smoke in front of her and feel that she was ok with it like that...well you know until she dumped me.
I have made attempts to quit before some with various levels of slight success, on New Years it was my Resolution to quit smoking and felt switching to chewing tobacco was the right way to do it(Not all decisions are genius). In 2008 I really didn't have a choice, I had joined the Navy and smoking was not a choice in our 2 month boot camp, although if I was smart about it that should've been the last time I smoked...Nope. There has been other attempts but not anything else worth mentioning.
Well this is attempt number...um....somewhere around um....who the hell knows? I have tried so much to quit everything from hypnosis, setting a day to quit, cutting down, cold turkey. You name it, It has been attempted. So how am I doing it now completely cold turkey. I had gone out drinking on Friday and smoked what felt like 2 packs of cigarettes. I woke up Saturday morning felt like complete dog shit, started getting sick so I didn't feel the urge or want to smoke that day. Come Sunday, I was feeling better and had a sort of epiphany realizing that I hadn't smoked in over 24 hours, I had decided that it was time to quit. Now if it was only easy, Although Sunday wasn't the craving only came about every 5 mins or so. Today (Monday) on the other had it has been miserable def the worst day thus far, however still being a champ and haven't smoked yet, I have been chewing gum, gritting my teeth, eating cough drops, and bitching like crazy. Well hopefully this helps an impulsive decision and really helps to quit. Ill keep up the blogging if not for anybody to read but help me quit.
Bye for now.
JD
